Pandora mixes a great selection (Ingrid Michaelson)

A typical Friday night has turned into Monday night for me.
I'm sitting in my room, browsing internet shit, alone. And I am conflicted.

By typical, I mean in the past I have the tendency to stay in rather than go out. Going out entails first, a shower, and second, motivation. Its not that I don't like going out, and spending time with people. Its simply an unfortunate fact that I can talk myself into staying in to do some boring activity, like Photoshop, 'catch up' on reading, rearranging my room, and ... this. All projects that need to be done -- but do they need to on a Friday night?

This 'Friday' night (which I'm writing on a Monday because in my new schedule, Mondays and Tuesdays are my days off) was after a great day at the beach. After work, Kodi, Dan and I went to a few beaches, where they surfed and I snorkled/napped.
We drove back, joking and listening to Hawaiian radio, and thought about watching a movie, our usual ritual. A few hours into to the evening, I had eaten my dinner and was getting bored. Kodi (and possibly Dan, I don't know where he is) had decided to drink some beer and talk story (chill out) with neighbor friends. They also decided to do a certain illegal, but enjoyable, baked activity.

This is my issue -- I had decided a while ago to forgo any similar activity. I don't especially enjoy it and the majority of people I have participated with are plain boring afterwards. Not an activity I decided to continue. Also, if I am not partaking, it's a boring experience for me then.

So I turned down the invitation to join. But this is the time to make friends! To enjoy the local's color, talk story, be friendly.
I truly did not want to seem rude. I even called my self a 'square' when I told Kodi I didn't want to join because of that.
Hopefully this does not turn into a pattern. I can't rely on Catherine to hang out with in the evening, or the other roomies -- I must go make my own friends. Put my fear aside (because, yes, I am actually quite self-deprecating and shy) and take initiative! Call over for a dinner, or drive over for a movie. I am not the greatest person to hang out with -- if I'm by myself. I'm boring myself.